Thursday, August 30, 2007

WHERE iS THE EASY BUTTON!?

ever seen that commercial?? i wish i had an easy button to push! faith is hard sometimes!!! the easy button would allow someone to come along and buy my car at an incredible price...the easy button would give me insight to know exactly how much money i need for nicaragua and what God wants me to do with what is supplied, or if extra money is so that i can stay longer...the easy button would give me extra hours in the day to spend completely devoted to God, being with Him, doing whatever it is He wants and not time that i just waste...the easy button would get rid of the "junk" in my life. i'm talking literal junk. i look at my bedroom and am disgusted by all the "stuff" i've collected throughout the years. and the mentality that i am always in "need" of something! hopefully i'm gonna get rid of alot when i have a yard sale sept. 29. i can't wait! if anyone sees my easy button laying around, please let me know...otherwise, i'll keep (trying) to having faith (as feeble as it may be) that God will take care of all my needs!!!
p.s. i hate satan...let's kill satan...anyone...anyone?! lol

Sunday, August 19, 2007

EVERYTHiNG

church was great tonight! we had some old fashioned gospel singing. it was mostly the choir singing, but of course anyone in the congregation who knew the words sang along. It's amazing that no matter the type of music, contemporary or traditional, God can still be found in it. oh, how we forget that. It's not about whether the church sings contemporary praise songs or traditional hymns, they are words written to bring us into worship for our Lord. it's the words that we offer up as praise, not the melody or tune of the song. if only the church as a whole could figure that out and praise him no matter what the style of music! it's NOT about us, nothing in worship is about us! it's ALL about Him!
i found out tonight that i have 2 more months sponsored! I'm up to 7 months, plus the possibility of a few more! it's so amazing to see God working to make this come together. a little over a month has passed since i got back from nicaragua, and God has already supplied more than half of the support i need...in spite of who i am, he still wants to use me. it's so beyond me!
today is one of those days where i feel like the flood gates could open at any moment and i'll start crying, just b/c i feel so overwhelmed by God's grace and his sufficiency in my life. He is truly all i need.
here's some lyrics to a favorite of mine...

"Everything" by Lifehouse

Find Me Here, Speak To Me
I want to feel you, I need to hear you
You are the light, That's leading me
To the place, where I find peace again.

You are the strength, that keeps me walking.
You are the hope, that keeps me trusting.
You are the light, to my soul.
You are my purpose...you're everything.

How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

You calm the storms, and you give me rest.
You hold me in your hands, you won't let me fall.
You steal my heart, and you take my breath away.
Would you take me in? Take me deeper now?

How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

Cause you're all I want, You're all I need
You're everything,everything
You're all I want, your all I need
You're everything, everything.
You're all I want, you're all I need.
You're everything, everything
You're all I want, you're all I need, you're everything, everything.

And How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

Monday, August 6, 2007

GOD iS ON THE MOVE

in a little under 3 months, i will be moving to Nicaragua for a year! exciting, i know...the hard part is raising the funds for support, but God has been moving since I concreted the plans. The night I announced it to my church I received a check for the first month. Since then (about 3 weeks ago) I have received 2 more months worth of support, plus a promise for a 4th month. I have also had about 6 others promise to help as much as they can. I am amazed at the hand of God on this. I feel so privileged for God to choose to use me, in any way, to help accomplish his mission of souls being brought to him.
My main purpose in going is to provide administrative support for the missionary from our church, but I know that God has so much more in store for me than just that. He's already moving in my heart for the need of discipleship for the people of Nicaragua. Sure it's great for so many to go down and have crusades, etc. but what happens after the team goes home!? who shows the new believers how to live a life for God? no one really, unless they get connected with a firm Bible believing & preaching church. And if they can't find that, then they are gonna continue to search elsewhere.
I'm so excited (and nervous) about where God is leading my heart on that issue! we'll find out soon enough I guess.